“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
I was doing so well, and for so long...
Then I messed it up.
And I was so close!
I was walking in faith, full of peace one minute, and the next minute it was all gone.
God told me He would take care of it and I believed Him, at least for a while. Actually, a long while given my default, “I’ll take care of this so You don’t have to bother” mindset. I wasn’t scurrying around trying to make something happen, but peacefully following God’s lead as I did my part. Then one day, something changed. It may have been the looming deadline, or the only remaining lead turning into a dead end.
Looking back, I think being rejected by the only place I knew of to ask for help was what caused me to pull the whole mess into my own hands and start to panic. What if this? What if that?
What happened? I started leaning on my own understanding, which according to Proverbs 3:5 means I did not trust the Lord with all my heart. You know the kind of thinking I’m talking about:
“I’m not qualified for this;”
“I’m not gifted in this;”
“How am I ever going to do this?”
I I I I I! Good grief!
Thankfully, my lapse lasted only a day. My peace returned when I placed it all back in God’s hands. I already had a lot of people praying about the situation, but I called in a couple die-hard prayer warriors and that made all the difference. Not only did I have my peace back, but within a day I had the solution. God told me who to go to, I did, and now it’s all taken care of.
Thank you Jesus, for how far you’ve brought me from my “taking care of it myself” mode. Thank you for the peace You give when I trust you as I should, and thank you for understanding and helping me to get back on track when I fall short. Thank you for being the God of second chances who never gives up on me even when I give up on myself. Most of all, thank you for always keeping Your promises and finishing what You start!“[He] who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion…” ~ Philippians 1:6